Trust

Trust in the Lord....
What can you trust the Lord to do?

Can you trust Him to let you have what you want?
Can you trust Him to save what you love?
Can you trust Him to keep you from harm?
Can you trust Him to save your life?
Can you trust Him to give you what you need?
Can you trust Him to do the best thing for everyone?
Will that be the best thing for you?
Will that be what you want?
Will you be happy anyway?

It's not looking like God's going to give me my concert.

In the book Is that really you God? the first YWAMer's wanted to buy a ship, paint it white, and use it to bring food and medical supplies to the islands of the South Pacific. But, they got their heart set on one ship, and they got so excited about it that they forgot to give the glory to God. When he convicted them of this they knew that, after they changed their thinking, God could either heal their dream, or they could let it die and he would resurrect it in whatever form or timing he chose. Well he did bring it back to life, they had to wait longer for it to happen , but it was just as spectacular as they had dreamed it would be.

So, God could heal my dream, and it will be good enough. Or I could let it die, and He could raise it up somewhere else, and it would be amazingly awesome, but it won't be what I wanted.

Lord, help me to let it go, help me to be ok with it, help me to trust you, and help me to mean it.

Trust is such a funny word. When I have a little boy I think I'll name him Trustin.

One step at a time

I've been doing a lot to get ready for the concert next month, but it's kind of being a pain in the behind right now. So here's what I did/am doing to get ready for the trip outside of that:

1. Stayed at the Platt's house for a weekend to get to know their family better from a nanny's perspective. Max and I had a little contest to see who was gonna be the boss, but he loved me by the time I had to go. We plan to get together a few more times before we leave. 
2. Sent in a resume and the 8 page application to YWAM so I can work in the Creche (preschool) room while I'm there.
3. Got a new passport, because the one I used when I went to Australia expired the 25th of March.
4. Sent out sponsor letters to let my far away family in on what's happening, and of course to ask for money  :P
5. Went to the doctor to make sure I was all up to date on my immunizations.  It turned out I only needed one shot, and my CBC came back normal.  :)
6. Reading Loren Cunningham's book 'Is that really you God?'. His autobiography about learning to hear the voice of God, and starting Youth With A Mission.
7. Gathering tips and tricks for how to pack for 6 months in one suitcase. (I really don't want to have to leave my fashion sense behind...)